Thursday, November 30, 2006

Sorry To Sound Religious, But........

I read my bible avidly. In being gone for a minute, I realized that there are certain things that are needed in ANY life, be it music or just plain old 9 to 5 and one of those is guidance. I wouldnt be where I am today if Christ hadnt stepped in and began to get my attention. A lot of people dont know it, but I am a changed man. I listen to GOD a lot more now and my temper isnt the same as when I was younger. Suffice it to say, a lot of the things that would have sent me into a blind rage when I was 17-21, just dont affect me like they used to. Im looking forward to my music reflecting that change in my life. Before I left, I had a lot of things that I felt the need to address in my music, but they were NEVER really that important. They were things that I just talked about because they were bothersome and trivial and moreover, it was just fun for me. One thing I know about me is that Im good at music. Abnormally good, especially for the area that I come from and honestly, it has bothered me in the past when people confuse my confidence for cockiness or arrogance. I seldom give my attention to negativity, but I can see that there's a storm brewing and Im admittedly, MORE CALM THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN! GOD alone has always been the leader of my life. Even when I didnt try to pay Him any attention, HE, and HE alone has guided me and I take complete solace in that. This morning was no different. In my daily reading, I was led to read Ecclesiastes 4:13-16 which reads:

13. Better a poor and wise youth than an old and foolish KING who will be admonished no more. 14. For he comes out of PRISON to be KING, although he was born POOR IN HIS KINGDOM. 15. I saw all the living who walk under the sun; they were with the second youth who stands in his place. 16. There was no end of all the people over whom he was made KING; yet those who come afterward will not rejoice in him. Surely this also is VANITY and GRASPING FOR THE WIND.

These verses filled my heart with hope, joy, faith, knowledge, and abundant strength. God has truly been providing for me since the trials that He allowed to happen to me and I can do nothing more than be humble and be thankful. So many people are so quick to assume that they know you or have you figured out and God takes care of those people accordingly. Anger is something that I choose not to give in to. Vengeance is something that does not belong to me. I learned that lesson before I made it back to Dallas. There is a level of promise that I honestly dont believe a lot of people who rap,or people period for that matter, believe in. I am being shown in different ways each day that there is some greater calling on my life and that there will be those who cannot accept it. Sorry to sound religious, but "NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!" And I laugh to myself and sleep easy every day about that fact.

The mix tape is coming, PEOPLE! December is upon us! Be prepared! Be happy! Be ready for something extraordinary! Store your food! Lock your wind.........just kidding! Just stay posted!


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